Tonight... SUCKED.
Okay, first off let me say that working the hours that I do, I usually don't get many chances to hang out very late. Tonight is the first of only FOUR nights I will be allowed to do that, and I've wasted it running around, trying to find a girl that may, or may not even exist.
It all started weeks ago when someone we'd never seen before contacted matt claiming she got his screen name off his xanga. We thought it odd, but not out of the realm of possibilities (his screen name is probably on his xanga somewhere) so we chatted and found out she matt and I had a lot in common. Matt and I were eager to meet said woman and we thought she was too.
Once the chatting was finished and we hoped more would continue the next day, we went to bed dreaming of the possibilities (or at least I did). The next day, much to my surprise she did not get on, nor the next day or the next... a few days went by with nothing.
So let's review, what do we know about this girl? Well, her name... and that's it... just her first name and NOTHING ELSE! No address, no phone number, no email, not even so much as her last name!
SO at this point we let our hopes down by dissmissing this chance encounter as nothing more than a passing occurance. But then she signed on! And we started chatting again. I wished nothing more to meet her (to face her in halo 2) so we decided to meet at the DQ before being escorted back to her house where she lives with her brother.
Cut to an hour later and we're still waiting at the dairy queen. We went inside and eat some fries and talked about some grand conspiricy that maybe our new found friend wasn't anyone. That it might actually be my ex-girlfriend playing the worst practical joke EVER trying to get me back. I mean, we knew that they claimed to be friends from elementary school... but now they were best friends again becuase of me and my brother!?
SO anyway, back to the story. Needless to say she didn't show up. We were a little ticked but not that bad. We did get time to goof off and talk about the show. When we got home, we half-expected her to be on, waiting for us to apologize for not showing up but no.
Two weeks later (today, and after many attempts to get a hold of her) she imed me again and said she was hanging out with maggie and wanted to do something. We were happy to meet her, and glady hopped in matt's truck to meet them at a computer lab near maggie's apartment. Low and behold we get there and all we find is maggie. Aparrently she left to go home for a second and her brother (who may or may not be gay) told her she could not return. With no hope of meeting her matt and I decided to leave. Oh, did I mention maggie talked to her on a phone and yet never seemed to dial any numbers? SUSPICOUS...
SO we went home, no big loss. Then she gets on AGAIN! I guess she arrived back almost ten minutes after we left (coincidence?) and wanted to hang out... except this time I was required to talk to my ex-girlfriend for like twenty minutes to get the okay. After that I then preceded to jabber on with our "friend" until 11:15 when I hear her say "maggies going to bed and i'm tired"
Was she calling it off? I wondered... so I asked... Five minutes later she answered... but no to my question... So i asked her again... five minutes later... she answered again... and once again not to my question... after a lengthy disccusion of why I won't go out with maggie again (wonder why that came up...) we decided to meet her outside Grounds in ten minutes...
We showed up.... waited TWENTY minutes... and then left... much angrier then before...
And then I made this post... To express the angry inside which will manifest right about.... NOW!
WHAT THE HELL IS GOING ON!? DO YOU WANT TO MEET US OR NOT!? MAKE UP YOUR ****ING MIND AND STICK WITH IT GOD****IT! FOLLOW THROUGH WITH SOMETHING FOR ONCE! I'M NOT BEING MEAN, I JUST THINK THAT WHEN YOU SAY YOU'RE GOING TO MEET SOMEONE AT A CERTAIN TIME AND A CERTAIN PLACE IT'S JUST COMMON COURTESY TO ACTUALLY SHOW YOUR @$$ UP OR DON'T SET UP THE MEETING AT ALL.
AM I WRONG!? AM I!?
Okay, now that all that anger is out... I've decided to give this person ONE more chance to make the effort to meet us. (unfortunately matt is not so forgiving) If they EVER wish to meet us (IF THEY'RE EVEN REAL) they should IM RIGHT NOW!!! I'M ALWAYS ON SO I WILL GET YOUR MESSAGE! And you'd better have a damn good excuse...
Duke's Tower
Why am I trapped in this castle? I've been here for so long, it's big and cold and I only have myself for company. Sure, people visit, but all they find is what I've left behind, carved into the walls and floors. No one ever sees the real me, no one ever tries. But I still try to show them, show them the way I am inside. The way I am inside this shell, a shell that little by little is cracking away, revealing the true me. But would you show yourself if YOU were full of cracks?